Monday, December 23, 2013

Searching for my dream

If someone had asked me what my dream was a year ago, I just might write down a list of things I wish to achieve- my dreams. However, at this point in my life, it seems that I have to learn to dream again even though at times it seems hopeless that I'll ever achieve it. I need to get over the super realistic side of me and try to be daring whilst I'm still young to reach for my dreams.

     I feel that, every time I start to dream, someone either an acquaintance or a stranger manages to ruin it just within minutes with their negative comments or equally super realistic views on the possibilities of me achieving it. I know that it's not their problem, it's mine. I shouldn't let others' opinions easily affect my decision when it comes to my future. I wonder if this realization that I've been letting others get to me came too late.

    Currently, I am still standing at a crossroad as I'm still undecided as to what I want to do or study in the next 5 years or so. I'm still trying to figure out what my passion is and what career I want to pursue. I have never thought that I would ever come to this point in my life. I dislike the lack of predictability of my situation as, to be honest, I'm quite a control freak.

     I know that I should just let it go and let God lead the way but sometimes I just couldn't help it. I just want to know that I have a goal, a destination for me to put my focus in. But I'll try to let go. Maybe by then, things will make sense to me and I'll find what my calling is.

Tuesday, December 17, 2013


Just when I thought the friendship that I share with one of my besties, S is no longer the same, she surprised me yesterday with a phone call. I was surprised as knowing her, she would not be the one to make the call when she's away from home (she's trying to reduce her phone expenses). When I thought the distance that had separated us physically would leave a gap between us, chatting with her made me realize our friendship still prevails.

        When I picked up my phone, I expected awkward silence in between our conversation. It left me a good feeling as our conversations flow with ease. It really made my day, knowing that I could count on her as a friend.

        Once, a friend remarked that sometimes she sensed that I am afraid of losing a friend. When she told me that, I remembered denying that statement in haste. Now that I think about it, maybe I am. I disliked the feeling of losing someone. Then again, who doesn't ?

        This year, with most of my friends flying off to study elsewhere and some went on to continue their Form 6 education, I feel that our friendships are at risk. That if both parties do not put in some effort, the friendship that we share will inevitably change. Deep in my heart, I know that even if I still keep in contact with my mates, we might no longer share the common interests or topics that have once drawn us closer as friends.

        Nevertheless, I consider it a blessing to have these people in my life, even if it's just for a short while, to help me through the phases in life and to be the ones whom I share happy and even bittersweet memories with.

Tuesday, December 10, 2013


I'll let you look inside me, through the stains and through the cracks,
And in the darkness of this moment,
You see the good and bad.
But try not to judge me, 'cause we've walked down different paths,
But it brought us here together, so I won't take that back.

We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
We are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.

~Lyrics to Thompson Square's 'Glass'

Rion Paige's rendition of Thompson Square's song- 'Glass', is just beautiful.

I could not believe that listening to her singing this song would actually bring tears to my eyes. I finally gave X Factor USA another chance after a disappointing season 2. To my surprise, X Factor USA season 3 is full of talents. Needless to say, I had trouble picking a favourite and also in predicting who's going to be sent home next.

I feel that I could somehow relate to the lyrics of 'Glass', but maybe not directly to the meaning the lyrics convey. 

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Book Sales! !

I've recently been to 2 book sales here in Kuching. I have to say the timing is just right. I mean with the Big Bad Wolf book sale coming up in Selangor, I'm just itching to go to some sort of book sale since I don't think I'll be able to just put everything aside and fly to Selangor just to go to that sale...

      The Book Lovers Carnival hosted by Second Time Around books at The Hills Shopping Mall sells 2nd hand books that are directly imported from USA.
      There's also a book clearance sale by Popular Bookstore at CityOne Megamall. Though I'm quite sure that all Kuchingites must have heard of these 2 book sales with all the advertising going on.... but for those who have not heard of the sales.. both events have already started and will end in early December.

      I feel that to get the most out of book sales, you need to have a little bit of luck or else you'll end up not finding books you're pleased with (that is only the case if you're picky when it comes to selecting books)

      Both sales are, in my opinion, great in their own ways.


Thursday, November 21, 2013

Movie Magic

Although I'm super busy lately, I managed to squeeze some time for the 'Catching Fire' premiere, that is, today!!
     One word: AWESOME!!
     I find it so fascinating to watch Suzanne Collin's work of fiction come to live on the big screen. The movie, in my opinion, progresses very smoothly and the setting plus the new characters are just similar to what I've imagined while reading the book.

Sunday, September 1, 2013

To the Beach (Kuching, Sarawak)

I went to Damai Central (which is connected to Damai Beach) with my family yesterday . The 1 hour (approximately) drive there was definitely worth it. It's been a while since I last been to the beach.

      As soon as I stepped out of the car, I could feel the breeze blowing in my face. I'm glad I live in Kuching :) 

Damai Central

Walking towards the beach

Afterwards, we went to a seafood restaurant a few minutes' drive away from Damai Central.

The view from the Restaurant 
Amazing, isn't it?

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Hover by Melissa West

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Title: Hover (The Taking #2)
Author: Melissa West

Release Date: August 13th, 2013
Publisher: Entangled Teen
Source: Bought
Genre: YA, Romance, Sci-fi


On Earth, seventeen-year-old Ari Alexander was taught to never peek, but if she hopes to survive life on her new planet, Loge, her eyes must never shut. Because Zeus will do anything to save the Ancients from their dying planet, and he has a plan. 

Thousands of humans crossed over to Loge after a poisonous neurotoxin released into Earth's atmosphere, nearly killing them. They sought refuge in hopes of finding a new life, but what they became were slaves, built to wage war against their home planet. That is, unless Ari and Jackson can stop them. But on Loge, nothing is as it seems...and no one can be trusted.

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

"Oh no! Oh no, oh no..." Those were the words I kept muttering under my breath as I reached the end of Hover(Book 2 of The Taking Series by Melissa West). The ending of Hover left me in a state of shock. I had more questions left unanswered than before I started reading it. What happened to Lawrence? What's going on in Sydia? Will the Ancients and half-Ancients be alright? Where is Jackson??

       I really enjoy reading Hover; however, I love Gravity (Book 1 of The Taking Series) MORE.
I'm not sure if it's just me but I felt that for the first half of Hover, the story progresses rather slowly and lacks action, mostly dealing with the struggle Ari faces in finding herself and also adapting to life on Loge. I also got a glimpse of Jackson as Jackson Castello. In Gravity, I got the impression that Jackson is very collected and in control even when a curve ball is thrown in his way. In Hover, Jackson Castello has had a hard time dealing with life around his grandfather, Zeus and has hit his breaking point. To tell the truth, I like Jackson Locke better than Jackson Castello. I guess, to me, Jackson Locke seems so perfect that it was hard for me to let go of that image created in my mind to accept Jackson as Jackson Castello, who, like everyone else, like Ari, is scared and lost. But I'm slowly getting there...

       I felt that the real action of the story starts in the second half of the book. That is also the part when Ari slowly accepts Jackson as he is and opens up to him.

       Before reading Hover, I'd envisioned Zeus as a kind soul, one who yearns for peace to prevail and also one who would possibly use Ari as a mediator between the 2 species-Ancients and humans, to put an end to the war. However, Melissa West took a completely different turn. Now, Zeus is the bad guy who might be crazy.

       I cannot wait for the final book of The Taking Series- Collide to hit the markets. I am curious to know how Melissa West will end this series.

To read my review on Gravity, click here.

Saturday, August 17, 2013

A visit to the Caves

I went on a little road trip today around Bau, Sarawak with my family. To tell the truth, I kinda hoped that I'd get to hang around the beach so I got my sandals ready. But visiting the caves is nonetheless awesome though I'm not properly dressed to explore them in my sandals.

First Stop:  Fairy Cave
This is actually my first time visiting Fairy Cave... well, I guess it's better late than sorry :P

To get to the entrance of the Fairy Cave, I need to climb up these stairs. 

The entrance of Fairy Cave

Once I've reached the entrance, I realized that there's still a flight of VERY steep stairs left. The only part that I do not enjoy is climbing up and down the steep stairs inside the cave with little to no daylights to be seen... (not to mention that some parts of the stairs are slippery wet.) My legs became wobbly once I got inside.

Isn't it amazing? I took it from the inside of the cave... maybe the climb is worth it...

Next stop: Wind Cave

I didn't go inside the Wind Cave as my legs are still  quite wobbly so I just went to the small stream flowing outside it to rest my feet..

That's me checking out the waters underneath.

The water is cool and the stream is shallow enough from where I'm standing.

Ain't it pretty? I love the silhouette of the leaves~

I had great fun today and I think I have finally acknowledged the fact that I'm a LITTLE afraid of heights.. have to thank the steep stairs for that..

If you interested in the caves, you can come to Sarawak anytime... The caves, not to mention the stairs (to Fairy Cave) will be there, waiting to be explored.... 

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Not-so-perfect world

Growing up, I lead a sheltered life. I used to think of the world as Disney perfect (I love all the classic Disney movies and thus, in my imagination, I like to pretend I'm in some Disney movie setting). Well, maybe not perfect, but fair and just and nice. As I mature into a young adult, I realize that this world is anything but perfect.

     Maybe it's just how my personality is but I don't like talking about my emotions openly. I hate it when I let people see me breaking down at my moment of weakness. I suppose I did a pretty good job concealing my feelings until someone asks me to talk about it.

     I've never felt that I've been prejudiced in my social circle. that is until I reached my teens. There was one inter-school debate competition I took part in few years ago and I have never felt so humiliated. There were some kids from a high school, who believe that their school has a better reputation than my school, felt that my team is not good enough and that we just don't deserve to win anything. I was mad that they had to go all the way and made their opinion of us known to the rest of the participants. It turns out the world is not such a perfect place after all...

     What would you do or maybe, what should you do when you can't voice out your opinion regarding a matter close to the heart? What if some person with influence got a fact so messed up that it angered you so, so much but you couldn't make that person see the light since that person is adamant that whatever is said is totally a fact? If you voice out your opinion to refute his, you might start a fight and may face some consequences. But if you don't, you may blame yourself for not sticking up for what you believe in. What would you do? I mean, since some people can be manipulative, will they even listen to your point of view without being biased with their own opinion?


Thursday, August 8, 2013

'My Sister Dilly' by Maureen Lang

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Title: My Sister Dilly
Author: Maureen Lang
Release Date: September 24th, 2008

Publisher: Tyndale House Publishers
Source: Bought
Genre: Christian fiction, Contemporary


Hannah Williams couldn't get out of her small hometown fast enough, preferring the faster pace, trendy lifestyle and beauty of California's Pacific Ocean coast. Only when her younger sister, Dilly, makes a desperate choice and commits the unthinkable does Hannah realize she never should have left her behind in rural Illinois. Hannah returns home to make up for letting Dilly down, leaving the one man she's ever loved in California. But Dilly is a changed woman, and when Hannah's plans don't go as expected, the bonds of sisterhood are tested like never before.

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

At first glance at the summary on the back cover of this book, I thought that I will be devastated at the end of the story like how I've always felt when finishing other novels that have a similar theme to 'My Sister Dilly'. Surprisingly, this time, I'm not devastated. In fact, I'm somewhat pleased with myself that I picked up this book and managed to finish reading it within 2 days. I couldn't have asked for a better ending for this story.

I love the flow of the story. The story progresses very smoothly, not too fast, not too slow; unlike some novels (with a similar theme) I have read before. In my opinion, Maureen Lang had described each of the characters and also the settings in detail that I could easily envision them in my mind.

I admire the character-Dilly for her strength in taking care of a handicapped child and also her sister-Hannah, for standing by Dilly even after she had committed a crime. Being a hopeless romantic, I find myself more drawn towards the relationship between Mac and Hannah.

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

To change...

I was at the barber shop today when the song 'Landslide' came into my mind... It was so weird that of all the things that I could think of, the verse ' I've been afraid of changing, 'cause I built my life around you' is all I could think of. I tried to resemble watching my hair being cut to watching a landslide (so not working out!)

       I often wonder how some people take changes in their life so easily as if they are not at all bothered by it. Secretly, I admire them for having this attitude towards changes in life and kind of wish that I have such attitude when dealing with changes.
      Truth be told, I'm not a fan of changes.. It took me ages to get used to the fact that I'm no longer a high school student. Also, it took me nearly 2 months just to get used to my life in National Service (that only lasted for 3 months).
     Sometimes, I try to pretend that changes can be prevented, that there's no such thing as 'change'. I know, I know, it's silly as it's just impossible. That is why I have to find the courage to face changes and also to change.


Saturday, July 27, 2013

A visit to Kuching Food Festival and Logos Hope

This has been a busy week for me, with some assignments that needed to be submitted and new assignments the lecturers had given out. Nevertheless, I still managed to went to two local events. The first- the annual Kuching Food Festival and second- a visit to Logos Hope.

      Though personally, I don't exactly look forward to going to the Kuching Food Festival ( the reason being that it's crowded with people). This year, however, I enjoyed it more than I'd expected... I guess that observing the crowd is the main reason that I find it interesting. Observing people's actions and their expressions has always  been fun for me and with the crowds busy looking at food stalls, I'm positive that they didn't even notice me staring at them.

      Remember how I wish that there would be a book sale selling books for as low as RM 8? Well, that wish sort of came true for me, thanks to Logos Hope that is visiting Kuching. In fact, I just visited the ship this afternoon with my college mates. When I first step into the section in which all the books are placed, I was ecstatic, especially after I saw that there are fiction books selling at RM 8. This is actually my first time visiting Logos Hope as I didn't get to do so last year due to the exams. After I finished book-shopping, me and my college buddy went and got ourselves ice-cream just before we're getting outside the ship for a photo-taking session with all my college mates. Oh, by the way, today's weather is scorching hot so needless to say, my ice-cream began melting. Throughout the entire photography session, I kept licking my ice-cream. But still, at the end of the shoot, my left hand is covered with ice-cream....  Even with the whole ice-cream -melting situation, I had great fun today :)


Some Books that I bought that cost me a little over RM 50.
I consider it a bargain

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Just some thoughts...

My friends used to play a game with me in primary school- they would place me in a situation they came up with and give me two choices for me to pick. There's one particular 'situation' I remember quite clearly- my friend, M, asked what I would rather have: my current friends or all the money I could ever ask for. Being just 10 years old at that time, I answered that I would rather have my friends as money can be obtained as long as I could get a job. After that, M along with a couple of my besties laughed  and teased me for being silly. They told me that I could easily make new friends even if I let go of the old ones. I was rather upset by that remark as I felt that they were implying that they could easily replace me with a new friend. Just as M had predicted, slowly but surely, we drifted apart after primary school. Though we sometimes chat online, the easy friendship we used to share was gone.

    Over the years, my best friends are replaced by newer ones. Former besties become merely a friend while some become more of an acquaintance rather than a friend. I guess friends do help me grow and help me cross to another phase of my life. Once I'm there, newer friends come along and help me through it. 

    Few days ago, I went on a movie date with some of my old school mates. Already I felt the distance between us growing even though it's only been weeks since I left Form 6 for college. I was quite bothered that I felt that way. I guess they sensed that I was not feeling comfortable with the situation but didn't know the reason why. Sometimes, I find myself wishing that I could turn back time and slow it down so that the wonderful moments I had with my friends could be relived. But then, I do not want to relive my NS days... Sure, I've made awesome friends there but the thought of waking up at 4.45am for another 3 months just to relive the moment? Um, no thanks. I'm just glad I met them...

    One of my besties, S, is also starting a new phase in her life- college life. Sadly, she's currently studying in Peninsular Malaysia. If only we could get through this phase with her living near me.... Anyways, at least we still talk over the phone and she didn't make me feel that I could easily be replaced with a click of the fingers.

Today, I'm feeling...nostalgic. I never like that feeling.

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Haze + Heat wave = Moody Me

    Lately, Malaysia is hit by a heat wave and the unbearable haze. Just last Wednesday morning, I was having my driving lesson and I just could not focus! While driving that day, my mind was not on the road but had drifted off to an isolated island enjoying my smoothie and the breeze (and I'm not proud of it :P).

   To make matters worst, I did not enjoy reading "Duty Free" by Mohi Mohsin. I was quite disappointed as I'd expected it to be funny. The story is nothing like Bridget Jones's Diary as promised on the cover of Duty Free. Furthermore, there are just too many typos that I just could not enjoy the story. Without the typos, there's a high possibility that I'll like it a lil' bit more.

   2 weeks. I have survived college for 2 weeks. After having a mini meltdown, I guess I'm feeling okay now. Instead of having 10 persons in my class, there's another addition of 9 girls from out of town joining us last week. Thank goodness! Now, my class won't be too eerily quiet. It feels like I'm actually in a class, not some quarantine room (not that I've ever been in one, but I'm imagining things, thanks to the heat).

   Since the haze showed up, I've went through some stuff that made me laugh, cry , angry,..... and few days ago, shocked. Twilight, the movie was aired on TV few days ago... I thought, why not give Twilight a shot?

    I could not believe I actually sat through the whole movie without criticizing it like I'd expected I would. I. Actually. Enjoyed. It. I'm surprised that I like it, after making fun of all the Twilight fans out there ( No offense! I'm sorta a fan now). Even though I like the movie, I'm still not a fan of all the actors on the movie. No more obsession for me.

Saturday, June 8, 2013

'Before I Fall' by Lauren Oliver

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Title: Before I fall
Author: Lauren Oliver
Release Date: March 2nd, 2010       

Publisher: HarperCollins
Source: Bought
Genre: YA, Contemporary


What if you had only one day to live? What would you do? Who would you kiss? And how far would you go to save your own life?

Samantha Kingston has it all: the world’s most crush-worthy boyfriend, three amazing best friends, and first pick of everything at Thomas Jefferson High—from the best table in the cafeteria to the choicest parking spot. Friday, February 12, should be just another day in her charmed life.

Instead, it turns out to be her last.

Then she gets a second chance. Seven chances, in fact. Reliving her last day during one miraculous week, she will untangle the mystery surrounding her death—and discover the true value of everything she is in danger of losing.

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I find this book really uplifting. After reading this book, I found myself thinking, what would I do if today is my last day alive, would i do anything differently if it is my last day, etc. Samantha Kingston has it all. However, she's infamous for the mean things she and her friends have done to their peers.

She found herself waking up on the same day that she'd supposedly died, going through similar events as the day before.This routine continues for several days before she realizes that she wants to treat people better and not be mean to them.

She wants to be remembered for the good that she's done, not the bad. Throughout the seven days, she finally acknowledges that she's fallen for her former best guy friend-Kent. On Day 7, she saved Juliet ( a victim who's been terribly mistreated by Sam and her group of friends) who tried to get herself killed. I had HOPED that in the end Sam would not die, that she'll end up with Kent and live happily ever after... Needless to say, it didn't end that way.

 Although Kent and Sam eventually confess their love for each other, the time spent together afterwards is just too short. A tiny part of me kind of understands why Lauren Oliver had ended the story in such a way. I really enjoy reading 'Before I Fall'. The story is beautiful yet sad, filled with characters that you'll grow to love or hate. In my case, I've totally fallen for Kent, another addition to the list of book characters that I love.

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Saying Goodbye to The Wolves of Mercy Falls

Shiver (The Wolves of Mercy Falls, #1)Linger (The Wolves of Mercy Falls, #2)Forever (The Wolves of Mercy Falls, #3)
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I have finally finished reading The Wolves of Mercy Falls trilogy, written by Maggie Stiefvater. :)

   When I first picked up Book 1-Shiver, I'm totally psyched that the main character and I share the same name. After reading 'Shiver', I have fallen in love with Sam Roth, Grace Brisbane's love interest in the story. It is a beautifully-written love story, a love story that seemed impossible to work out at first glance- a human falling for a werewolf that had saved her from her death years ago and finally meeting each other and falling in love. Without a doubt, among the 3 books in The Wolves of Mercy Falls, 'Shiver' is my favourite.

   Truth be told, I actually bought this whole set of books because its price is cheap. That's why I bought it. 3 books for the price of one. :) And I'm glad I did. When I realised that there are werewolves involved, I worried that this trilogy would be Twilight Saga-esque. Thankfully, it's not. It is better than Twilight. No offense here, just a personal opinion of mine.

  While 'Shiver' is written from Sam and Grace's perspectives simultaneously, 'Linger' includes the perspectives of Isabel Culpeper and Cole St. Clair. Isabel was one of the few people who knew about the werewolves. Cole is a singer who became one of the new members of the werewolves out of his own will. In  'Linger', it was Grace who slowly became a werewolf ( having once been bitten at a young age but had never shifted to become a werewolf) and Sam remained in his human form after he was 'cured'.

  In this trilogy, the werewolves only remain humans when the temperature is warm and as wolves when temperature's low. The biggest difference between the werewolves in this trilogy and of that in Twilight is that the werewolves in this trilogy can't think human thoughts and can't speak human in their wolf form.

  Once I started on 'Forever', I found myself drawn towards the relationship between Isabel and Cole. These two characters are obviously so into each other but their personalities seem to be holding them back a little. Cole has since then replaced Sam in my heart. Sam is such a sweetheart but in 'Forever', he was so frustrated with the whole Grace-is-a-werewolf-and-a-wolf hunt-is-on-the-way situation. I have to say that this has indirectly affected my moods and emotions for a couple of days. I found myself feeling down and frustrated over lots of petty things. Needless to say, 'Forever' is my least favourite in this trilogy though I am really pleased with the ending.

Monday, May 27, 2013

Book Sale...

I went to a book sale yesterday... I had all my shopping strategy planned out on how to get the best deals out of this sale. When I got there, I sort of lost myself upon looking at all the fiction books laid right in front of me. Hence, forgetting all of the strategies. This sale works this way (for most fiction books) : buy 2, get 1 at 50 %.

   After making the purchase, I felt good, thinking that I got the best deal... As I was heading towards the elevator, I got a text from Puan ( My NS friend from Selangor) that read : Guess how much I paid for 'The Elite'? Upon receiving this text, I already knew that she got the better deal than me. I actually bought The Elite (by Kiera Cass) a few weeks ago for RM30 +.

    I bought it for RM 10 at a sale, she replied.

AARGHH! I think I would have screamed in frustration if I was not in that elevator with my family and some strangers.

   I told her about the sale I went to and how it works. She replied that it did not sound like a sale to her..
But still, at least I got all the books at a cheaper price,eh?

   Anyway, I'm still glad that I bought a collection of Jane Austen's classics and some other books. So, I guess it doesn't matter any more.


Saturday, May 25, 2013

Starters by Lissa Price

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Title: Starters (Starters #1)
Author: Lissa Price
Release Date: March 13th, 2012
Publisher: Delacorte Books for Young Readers
Source: Bought
Genre: YA, Dystopia



Callie lost her parents when the Spore Wars wiped out everyone between the ages of twenty and sixty. She and her little brother, Tyler, go on the run, living as squatters with their friend Michael and fighting off renegades who would kill them for a cookie. Callie's only hope is Prime Destinations, a disturbing place in Beverly Hills run by a mysterious figure known as the Old Man.

He hires teens to rent their bodies to Enders—seniors who want to be young again. Callie, desperate for the money that will keep her, Tyler, and Michael alive, agrees to be a donor. But the neurochip they place in Callie's head malfunctions and she wakes up in the life of her renter, living in her mansion, driving her cars, and going out with a senator's grandson. It feels almost like a fairy tale, until Callie discovers that her renter intends to do more than party—and that Prime Destinations' plans are more evil than Callie could ever have imagined. . . .

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

After two disappointing reads by Alexandra Potter, I find Starters by Lissa Price a delightful surprise. Though the beginning of the story was slow, so to speak, I find myself engrossed in knowing what happened to Callie. The author refers those below the age of 20 as 'starters' and those above the age of 60 as 'enders'. Callie is a starter who had decided to rent her body out to an ender. In return, she would receive a large sum of money, just enough for her to rent a house so that Tyler (her little brother), Michael (a friend) and her would not live on the streets anymore.

   She was asked to sign a contract, stating that her body was to be rent out thrice. During her final rent, something went wrong. The renter was supposed to be 'asleep' throughout the rental. However, Callie found herself regaining consciousness after awhile. Book 1 ended in such a way that I find myself yearning to know more about the story. In Book 1, Callie fell for a privileged kid-Blake, who isn't the boy Callie thought he is. An ender was actually renting Blake's body when Callie met him. I am intrigued if Callie would fall for the real Blake or choose Michael over him.

  Starters is well-written and I would recommend it to anyone who loves sci-fi/ romance/ thriller.

School Break!

After two weeks of school, I am ready to shift to my holiday mode again. For those of you who have read through my other posts, you should know how indecisive a person I am. Currently, I have decided to cross my fingers that my appeal to transfer to art stream will be approved ( sorry to bother you guys with the whole decision-making thing)

   Lately, I've been trying to catch up with the episodes I'd missed in season 3 of Downton Abbey. I have to say, I am SHOCKED by Lady Sybil's death. I did not see that coming. To tell the truth, I am very upset by this twist in the plot as she is actually one of my favourite characters in Downton Abbey. Too upset that I decided to just read the synopsis of season 3 online.

   Who's excited about the newest season of The Voice? I know I am =)  I used to prefer American Idol to The Voice. However, since the drama going on with the AI judges seem to be the highlight of the show rather than the talent of the contestants, The Voice has taken the top spot on my list of watchable reality shows. Just my opinion, no offense to anyone in particular.

   Oops! Sorta went out of topic there..

   My ideal vacation: hanging out by the beach with a good book, trips to historical locations, visits to museums, castles.... No clothes-shopping involved in my ideal vacation.


Tuesday, May 14, 2013


Just when I thought that I have finally made up my mind on my pre-u studies, I started doubting my decision. Form 6 is an excellent choice but the thought of completing it as a science stream student just doesn't appeal to me.

   Last week, I went to the education department with a couple of my mates to hand in some documents for school and stream transfer. The lady in charge that day told us that any process for stream transfer is impossible till next month. Hearing that piece of information has brought my hopes and eagerness to study form 6 plummeting downhill.

  I started considering other options: a-level, MUFY and foundation. The thing about these 3 options is that if I decided to go for any one of them, I will no doubt be thrown in an unfamiliar place and will be expected to do some assignments that are alien to me with little guidance ( My Opinion). However, IF my transfer is a success, I'll get to go through form 6 in a familiar surrounding with teachers who only have my best interests in mind.

  Sometimes, I think I'm a coward. I'm not daring enough to take up new challenges, not bold enough to face a change.
   I didn't expect things to be so complicated. I just hope that JPA better be getting on with the stream transfer work...

Friday, May 10, 2013


 It is a truth universally acknowledged that one will definitely have disappointments in life, it's only the matter of how one handles it...

The disappointments I face lately:

1.) Form 6

     I went to register as a Form 6 student on the 8th of May. The school is wonderful, the environment is just beautiful and the teachers seem helpful.... Everything is nice. So, you're probably wondering why I'm disappointed about form 6, even when classes only start next week. Well, to be more exact , I'm disappointed in the process of switching from science stream to art stream.I didn't know that the process could be so complicated...and time-consuming. It sucks that I'll miss out on classes that I'm interested to take up on. After consulting the teachers, it seems that I MUST WAIT till June to know if my appeal has been approved. I guess I have no choice but to suck it up and just get through with it...

2.) Me and Mr.Darcy- written by Alexandra Potter

     Just when I thought I could escape from reality (even just for a little while) and the stress of constantly worrying about form 6 by reading a good book, I felt that I've been let down. After reading few books written by Alexandra Potter, 'Me and Mr. Darcy' is the least interesting. The story progresses very, very slowly in the beginning. In fact, after about 30+ pages, I feel like giving up on the book. However, I did finish the book by speed reading it... I don't really enjoy reading encounters between Emily Albright and Mr. Darcy. (For those of you who don't know who Mr. Darcy is, I suggest you to read 'Pride & Prejudice' by Jane Austen. It's a classic! The thought of Mr. Darcy falling for Emily is just ..... just so unlike the Mr. Darcy I've imagined him to be. I  mean Mr. Darcy is only for Elizabeth Bennet and Elizabeth Bennet is for him. Don't get me wrong, I love Mr. Darcy but I won't want to have him for me. Thankfully, at the end of the story, Emily found her own Mr. Darcy, that is Nelson Bryan Hargreaves (a.k.a Spike). 

Friday, May 3, 2013

Decision making time

After I got my SPM results slip, the first question everyone asks me is how's my result, followed by what i want to do next. Form 6? A-level? Foundation studies?

   At that time, I thought that time was on my side, that I have plenty of time for me to decide... These few weeks have been nerve-wrecking though. Some of my friends decided to go for a diploma and have started their studies already while some went for foundation studies. Anyway, the form 6 list just got out and my name's on it, which means I'm not accepted for Matrikulasi. Secretly, I'm pleased as I'm not looking forward to leaving my hometown to study elsewhere (even though it'll still be in Malaysia). It's kinda stressful to watch as everyone seems to know what they want and has taken a step towards achieving their goals and dreams whereas I still don't know what I want. I need to know what my dream career is for me to choose which pre-u studies to go for. Hence, I bought 3 self-help books about how to choose a suitable career, how to survive college, learning more about oneself to choose the perfect career...

    If someone asks me what I want to be when I grow up, my answers will be as follows ( based on years):

In 2008: a novelist
In 2009: an astronomer
In 2010: a wedding planner
In 2011: a nutritionist
In 2012: a lawyer
In 2013 (Jan-March): a lawyer
In 2013 (April-???) : I don't know but it's definitely something related to sociology..

    When I told my friends that I don't dream of becoming a lawyer anymore, they practically disagree about my decision and think that I'm out of my mind... They reasoned that I'm suited for this kind of career based on my personality... However, I know that my personality is not the main reason why they think i should become a lawyer. It's because they know I love debating. I have to admit, the main reason I used to dream of becoming a lawyer is because I love to have a good debate ( though I'm never the best speaker in debate competitions). I thought that becoming a lawyer would allow me to do what I like full-time and make a living out of it.... By the way, I also met a girl in National Service who also wants to be a lawyer. In fact, she's currently doing her A-levels at a local university which offers a law degree.... okay, back to the topic- ... though my friends think that I should still work my way into becoming a lawyer, my family, relatives and even family friends who've known me ever since I was a baby think that law is not suitable for me... I;m just glad that at least there are people who support this decision of mine.....

     I took online personality tests and found out a little more about myself... even some personality traits that I would deny I have.. Maybe law isn't for me.. Coincidentally, I've read two novels- 'Something Borrowed' and ' The Undomestic Goddess' in which the main character works as a lawyer. Maybe the authors exaggerated life as a working lawyer a little... They have no personal time, rarely spent any time with their family, crazy workload, etc.... and I realised that this is not the life I want to have...

   Then, I came across the term 'sociology'... After googling it, I found sociology to be quite an interesting subject... So, I went to Youtube to watch a sociology lecture. Surprisingly, I didn't fall asleep halfway through it. :)  I'm taking that as a good sign as I remember that I once watched a law lecture on Youtube and found myself slowly drifting away after 3 minutes or so.. At first, I thought that maybe it's the lecturer's fault that I couldn't pay attention to it... but then scrolling down the page, I found comments like ' Oh my gosh! I wish my lecturer is as good as you' , ' awesome lecture, dude!' and more comments of this sort...

   I can't say for sure that I will, 100% be taking up a sociology degree in the future.. However, since I have decided on at least 1 thing, which is to go for form 6, I think I can still explore more about my likes and interests before I finally have to decide about which course to take in university

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

When will The Big Bad Wolf come?

I've come to know about The Big Bad Wolf books through a friend  I met in National Service (a.k.a. PLKN).

     During my time as a 'wirawati', I spent most of my free time reading books (since I only got my phone on the weekends-once every two weeks for my camp). I would borrow books from other book-lovers I met in camp.

    My friend-Puan ( that's her family name and most friends use it as her nickname) told me that she bought all her books ( in The Big Bad Wolf book sale )which usually cost RM 30++ in my local bookshops for prices as low as RM 8. After some online research, I found out that the book sale hosted by The Big Bad Wolf is only available in Peninsular Malaysia :(

     When will The Big Bad Wolf book sale ever come to the east? To Sarawak, to be exact...

Monday, April 15, 2013

My book review on 'Gravity'

Image via Goodreads
Title: Gravity (The Taking #1)
Author: Melissa West

Release Date: December 18th, 2012
Publisher: Entangled Teen
Source: Bought
Genre: YA, Romance, Dystopia


In the future, only one rule will matter:

Don’t. Ever. Peek.

Seventeen-year-old Ari Alexander just broke that rule and saw the last person she expected hovering above her bed — arrogant Jackson Locke, the most popular boy in her school. She expects instant execution or some kind of freak alien punishment, but instead, Jackson issues a challenge: help him, or everyone on Earth will die.

Ari knows she should report him, but everything about Jackson makes her question what she’s been taught about his kind. And against her instincts, she’s falling for him. But Ari isn’t just any girl, and Jackson wants more than her attention. She’s a military legacy who’s been trained by her father and exposed to war strategies and societal information no one can know — especially an alien spy, like Jackson. Giving Jackson the information he needs will betray her father and her country, but keeping silent will start a war.

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

   I bought this book few weeks ago at a Popular book sale. The storyline is just as cool as the front cover itself. It is a light and easy read. Definitely a page-turner for anyone who loves a story with some romance and adventure.

   The story revolves around 17-year-old Ari Alexander, daughter of a commander. As the story progresses, she fell in love with the enemy- an Ancient ( the aliens in this story) Jackson who was appointed to her for The Taking. Ari was decisionally challenged whether to help the Ancients so that they could peacefully coexist with humans. However, that means that she would have to go against her own kind. In the end, she became part Ancient (after an incident) and was later taken by Jackson to the Ancients' world-Loge.

  This is book 1 of The Taking. I can't wait for book 2-Hover to be released. I am officially a fan of Melissa West's books.

Friday, April 12, 2013

To drive or not to drive

Last week, a friend of mine-Mag had me sit through a driving intro class with her.. Basically, it's just listening to tutors as they talk about road safety, rules, etc..

   I was calm throughout the lecture until they started showing videos of car crash and testimonies from victims on how they become disabled in a road accident.. That was when i start to freak out..

   Those close to me probably know how the thought of driving a car scares me though i know not the reason why...

   Since I already paid the paper examination fee, i will be sitting through the computer test on some basic road knowledge.. This test is something i can handle but the practical one- the one which requires me to go behind the wheel... I'm not looking forward to it.

Thoughts on PLKN

I can't believe that I'm back from PLKN for almost a month now. I happened to be one of the lucky ones chosen to embark on this journey..

   This experience is fine for me. I remember the day before going to my camp- I was ecstatic. However, my first day was a big disappointment. I suppose when you have high expectations for something and it didn't quite meet up with that standard you've set, you'll face disappointment.

   After being a 'wirawati' for nearly 3 months, I've made friends with Malaysians from different states. Of course, there're few dormmates of mine who are less...likeable but that's okay as I HAVE SURVIVED! :)

  After having lack of sleep and personal time for a while, I appreciate all that I have back home even more. Sure, I've learnt that teamwork and discipline are super important.. still, home is where the heart is.

  I am somewhat surprised to find myself missing the schedule, activities and the coaches of my camp... Okay, i  have to admit that this experience is somewhat FUN... if only I didn't set any expectations before this journey..

My mates from PLKN